I arrive to the hospital at 5 a.m. after a sleepless night, anticipating the long day to come. They start the meds to start my labor and at first it was easy... then the contractions start to come harder and more regular. So we decide to do the epidural before they get much worse, I was nervous about this but it wasn't all that bad.
It's 9:30 and they say its time to break my water, im dialated to a 4. Wow that is such a gross feeling for those that have experienced this its GROSS...
Now its noon and something just feels different so I call the nurse in and sure enough im already to a 10 and its time to start pracitce pushing, I'm thinking to myself OH Shit im not ready for this im not ready to be a mom and give up my life for my baby I can't do this take it all back... Then the pressure starts to build and I quickly change my mind and all I want to do it PUSH. So we start to push and the doctor almost missed it all. I pushed a total of maybe 10 times at the most for only 45 min and she was here. Thats when everything changed, and the love I feel for her is there instantly :) Now the real adventure begins, looking forward to the sleepless nights, the crying at all hours, and endless diaper changes. But i feel it will all be worth it, and we may just have another baby someday... I know I know I kept saying she was gonna be my only one but sometimes it takes experiencing something as wonderful as becoming a mommy to change your mind.
Now to all those who have not had kids and are reading this, my labor was unheard of easy for it being my first baby or so im told... Lucky me but I wouldn't expect it for everyone.
I'm off to continue in my adventure of mommyhood... Goodnight
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